My tears were pouring as I sang praise and worship songs at church.
In 2006, we knew soon after the premature birth of my twins that Nathan had Cerebral Palsy (CP). Doctors said that he might never walk. I told myself that I would conquer this mountain in front of me as we started our early journey of physical therapy. Nathan walked at age 3, with a cerebral palsy gait.
In they journey, it felt like I was holding a shovel trying to scoop away the mountain. I wanted Nathan to run. Eventually Doctors revealed that we were facing life ahead with autism for Nathan. Furthermore, Amor’s Global Developmental Delay (GDD) was becoming more apparent. Every year, she was falling cognitively further behind her peers. At age 4, she developed Myoclonic Epilesy. At that time, it wasn’t just a mountain, but the whole world toppled on top of me and I became numb.
I didn’t know why, but somehow I knew that, in time God would reveal why my family and I had to go through all that. The human part of me gave up. “Time to throw away the shovel,” I thought and accept what’s happening.
But faith kept me searching. All I wanted was to find Doctors and Therapists to help Nathan be functional – maybe to eat by himself or to say/communicate few words. And to help my fighter Amor to cope.
God gave me something better. He empowered me, through the Son-Rise Program® to be my twin’s best therapist. My twins started progressing amazingly! He gave me a community of autism warrior moms. Health began to improve with complementary therapies and Amor’s seizures was controlled and we eventually weaned her off anti-epilesy meds successfully. This time I had a bulldozer and I could get back to work to start flattening the mountain in front of me again. “I have a lot to do,” I told myself, “but all I need to do was be consistent and in time I will flatten the mountain!”
Past year, we were invited to listen to the Gospel of Grace, the tremendous LOVE that God has already poured for us through Christ, who took our sins, our burdens, MY CHILDREN’S SICKNESS, when He gave Himself up at the cross.
Understanding God’s love for me helped me understand why Son-Rise® is so powerful. It helps us, parents, manifest our UNCONDITIONAL love for our children with autism, the way God loves us FIRST, without asking us to change or to be good. It’s His love first (not our weak efforts to stick to the law or try to do good) that helps us become better members of society.
Today, I have a bigger revelation…It will not be by my strength no matter how gigantic my bulldozer is, but by HIS LOVE for me, that this mountain in front of me, will pick itself up and throw itself into the sea. As I have been declaring the blood of Christ, spilled so that Nathan’s health can be resorted, we have been experiencing his cognitive and physical healing. Sweet princess Amor is emerging from the sensory issues that clouded her personality. I myself, had eczema on my hands for 2 years, and simply knowing that God loves and will heal my children, has has healed my eczema completely.
At church, my tears continued to pour, as we sang praise and worship songs. I know with full confidence that everything taken away from me and my children will be fully restored because God loves me.

Amor was a super late reader. Though I was worried about her falling so far behind, I never pushed her to read because she was showing signs of dyslexia.
At age 7 she stared showing interest in reading and that’s the time we became more inviting to reading and listening to story books.  
When the motivation is there, that’s the best time to challenge. As as result, Amor is fast catching up with reading. Not only that, she is also showing interest in writing and is now able to express herself in short letters.
While it is exciting that she wrote me this letter, I’m more excited that Amor is now able to go beyond all the sensory issues that bothered her as a child, making her irritable and self-centered. She has now peeled off several layers of irritability thanks to all the Son-Rise® that we have been doing, and now she expresses her appreciation for others 😄. The sweet princess that she was meant to be is emerging!

…and I thought it was just an ordinary day.
I had lots of errands that I had to do with Amor after I picked her up after her music class. We had to pass by 7-Eleven to get play cards that I promised Ian. Then we had a quick dinner before getting groceries and finally heading home.

At the end of the day, I was happy to be home and in bed thinking, “Just an ordinary day…”

Then I realized, “Wow! I was with Amor and it was JUST AN ORDINARY DAY! How FANTASTIC!”

At the mall, I walked ahead of her. She followed me around making sure she could see me and not get distracted by the exciting shoe store or toy shops. Not too long ago, I would become unimportant to her if there was a more exciting shop. It didn’t matter that I would hide and for several minutes checking if she would look for me…she didn’t. I was reminded of those trips when we passed by a store and she said what was in her mind, “Bye-bye shoe shop, next time we will buy shoes.” 😇

At 7-Eleven, we got Ian’s card games. She suggested but did not insist on buying toys for her. 😇 

She followed me around the groceries without insisting on what she wanted.😇 She suggested “let’s go over there,” pointing at the aisle of shining packages of snacks and sweets, but she followed me as I reminded her that we on our way to the cashier. 😇

She patiently waited in line with me, sometimes suggesting, “let’s get these chips?” I simply reminded her that we had dinner already and didn’t need another snack. And she didn’t insist further. 😇 

These circumstances would have otherwise triggered her rigidity and difficulty transitioning, causing tantrums. Then leading to an upset Mom trying to get her whining Daughter home. Instead, Amor gave up on her “needs” and allowed me to “control” the schedule of our events. 😇

I have never written a blog with so many happy angel faces 😇😇😇! Amor has certainly been making great strides stepping out of her irritability and becoming the sweet Angel that she was meant to be.

I have been waiting for this day for the longest time and now that I have it! I almost didn’t realise that it’s here!

What a SUPER ORDINARY day! For the first time, it felt so easy doing errands with Amor. More errands and outings with Amor to come! 

Praise God for the gift of healing!
In the photo: Amor and I enjoying our sushi date before getting groceries.